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Re: The new book

#31 Post by Philias » Tue May 05, 2020 5:10 am

Adjustments.
Seems that my life is full of those.
I've went to have a look at Feathers before my run today. He's looking better.
Whatever Eileena did, helped. Gosh... I can't thank her enough, ever. My love for that woman runs so deep...
How often is she going to save me or my loved ones from dire moments?
I need to find something to thank her for this. She gave my old Friend another chance at life.

Maybe a spa-day? Talked about it with Angel.
He got excited.
Speaking of excitements.

Felix is finally coming out of his shell.
He's a bit skittish. Jumpy. Always trying to be close. I don't blame him. The contact is nice.
Especially in public. Shows how little he cares for the stares of others.
Or maybe he does not care because he just needs the feeling of safety over everything.
That obduction sure messed him up a bit.
But he's getting there.
At least he's starting to get excited over fashion again. Which.... For me... Is the most important thing.
That. And him eating at least three square meals a day. Gotta fatten him up so he fits nicely into a weddingrobe. Or suit. Whatever he wanna wear.

Had talks woth Earla and Chit a while back.
Who knew those two were such sweet people?
I'm excited to meet Earlas husband. Yes. Husband. Apparently she got herself wed wothout anyone there. Which is her right and all that.
But still. Lovely! I'll make her and Francis (was his name Francis?) another cake!

Chit... I always knew she was sweet. A kind soul. The kindest.
Gotta meet up with her more often. Those talks by the docks are truly enjoyable.
But i think next time, i gotta see where she's at with reading. There's this lovely spot in the park that i meet up with Syra sometimes. Might make it a thing to read with Chit there. As it's usually quiet there.

Now.
I was pondering about changing my running routes...
I feel like grabbing a gryphon, flying to redridge and running there. Or making a hop through duskwood. With the temperatures rising i need to get either - out of the sun - or... -to get out of the woods.
Literally.
The humidity in elwynn forest is going to kill me sooner or later. Redridge is nice and open but surrounded by mountains. Though. No matter where i go, the waters edge is a mere hop-skip-jump away. I could always just take a detour, doggypaddle a couple of minutes to cool down and continue.

Then again, duskwood.
Sun never shines there. It's virtually... Always cool. Though the fact that i could get attacked by bears, wolves or the wicked worgen kind is real. And it's not exactly a place i can take Angel to. Don't ever want to risk having him turn into one of us.
Afflictions are... They're a pain.

Speaking of pain. I got to go. The urge to shift and run is taking over my thinking just from writing about it.
Laters, Diary.
"In a world full of fear and hurt, even the least fortunate child deserves a toy to remind it of better times. If only temporarily. And if it smiles? That's the best kind of payment in my eye." P. B. Redcliff

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Re: The new book

#32 Post by Philias » Sun May 10, 2020 11:23 pm

It's odd.

After the meet, me and Felix went out to have a stroll.
To look for a mutual friend. In the end, we met two.
Isadar and Razalaz.
Both have gotten an invitation to the fashion show.
Isadar even got work for me. Ordered blankets. Tigerstripes. Brown base with beige stripes. Three on four meters long. Felix… He took off. Went home, apparently. Which is fine. Of course he can go.

So i took Isadar to the Recluse. A rum for him. A tea for me.
We had a talk… about relationships wothout strings.
About how Raythe an Olivia are trying to find him someone.
It's an interesting concept.
People. Friends. Trying to find you a partner.

Nannou and Gus went camping. Gus… Finally a sign of life from him… Not just a draft through the front door or a mysterious package.
But the actual person.
Told them goodbye.

But Isadars words made me think.

Something to ponder over with another cup of tea on a parkbench sometime.
Maybe tomorrow when i take the dogs out.
I'll just… Leave Felix to his work.
He's busy anyways. Always eager to work.
This fashionshow is something he's very passionate about. It's a good look on him.
The spark in his eyes. The enthusiasm. The excitement.
That's him. That's Felix. (crossed out section here)

Until tomorrow.
"In a world full of fear and hurt, even the least fortunate child deserves a toy to remind it of better times. If only temporarily. And if it smiles? That's the best kind of payment in my eye." P. B. Redcliff

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Re: The new book

#33 Post by Philias » Fri May 15, 2020 9:33 am

It's funny how certain things fall in and out of a picture.
Making it either a masterpiece or a patchwork nightmare. Huh...

I attended the riddlenight in Boralus tha' Felix hosted.
In all honesty... It was the most fun i had in a long time! The riddles were fantastic! Clever. Witty. Sometimes silly.
And in combination with the funny noises?
Just a hilarious little get-together to have some serious fun!
Though i must say, i did not even know half of the answers to the questions given.
But next time! Next time i'm gonna know more!

The marshmallow roasting was nice, too.
And we had quite some fun when Felix lit one on fire and tossed it onto some rando.
Hilarious conversations of townspeople.
Truly!

-

Caketesting!
I finally managed to get a couple of people together for the caketesting.
Managed to whip up four creations that pleased everyone. Though i believe the Raspberry-cupcakes were by far the favourites of the crowd. Neck on neck with the fruit-tarts.
So i guess i will be offering both on my birthday.
Ivm glad that i've seen Varric there! And Jingtei. Chit. Earla.... Sweet Earla. She took some of the treats home for Francis! Which is great! Spread the cakes! That way i don't re-gain weight again!
Nomine did not quite seem partial to any cake. Anomen was... Well... Anomen. But at least he enjoyed the red-velvet Dalaran-fudge.
Could not stop noticing that Eileena developed a liking for raspberries...
She's always been fond of fruits. In general.
Might drop by and bring her a raspberry tiered creamcake...

Varric invited me to train with him.
So did Shien.
Does that mean i'm loosing my edge? Am i turning too soft?
Loosing muscle? Or start looking weak?
The increased offers of suffering a shared regime are... Worrying...

-

Meeting Olivia and Raythe upset me...
Olivia is getting fatter and fatter with child.
And yet, despite all, they still fight... They don't have a midwife sorted at all. She's bearing twins... Her belly is swelling more by the day! It won't be much longer until she get's into labour...
Miss Victariana was back, too! It's so good to know she's well! Directly invited her to the fashionshow at Felix' request.

Fashion show...
I worry about that day since i have absolutely NO idea what to wear... At all.
And it's creeping closer and closer...
For now, i should maybe focus on work.
Isadars order of tigerstriped hypersized blankets won't make themselves.

Food for thought: buy an enchanted needle next time i visit Dalaran.
"In a world full of fear and hurt, even the least fortunate child deserves a toy to remind it of better times. If only temporarily. And if it smiles? That's the best kind of payment in my eye." P. B. Redcliff

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Re: The new book

#34 Post by Philias » Sun May 17, 2020 10:00 am

The Fashion show was a full success!
I am absolutely stunned by the amount of people that came. The amount of people that participated.
The amount of love the teams got. The work that went into the making of said outfits.
Everything!
It was just....
I can't even put it in words.
But what i can do is to make people treats as a thanks.
My team won one of the prizes. Chit's another.
And of course.... our friends where judged, too!

It is interesting to see what people consider to be 'wild'.
Isadar... sure looked like someone that was 'wild'. but not in the dangerous animalistic sense.
He looked more like a sexworker that escaped an establishment.
Poor man. Surely will have a cold come tomorrow. Maybe i should check up on him with some delicious cupcakes.
Found out that Tahrina was drooling over that mans arse. Unsurprising. He looks like a healthy male specimen after all. A real de(s)sert treat. HAHA. Excuse the pun...
But that treat invited us to Uldum.
He spoke of sands once upon a time. It makes me wonder if it's anything like Tanaris....
Maybe we should take him up on that offer. Visit the place and enjoy a holiday?
Food for future thoughts.

Then again...

Angel did not seem too happy about the man, tonight. Spoke about boundaries again.
Did Isadar breach any? I don't believe so. We're just jesting in a friendly manner. No harm in that, right?
I mean... he knows us. Right? He KNOWS we're an item. Getting wed and all that. So...
He would not dare to approach me in such a way.
Though even if he did? It's kind of flattering to know...
that A:
Angel cares so much.
and B: that i am still a desirable man?
Why am i suddenly on the receiving end of so many advances in such little time?

No use dwelling on that thought, though.
If anything, i will need to set boundaries, just the same way i did when Tahrina confessed her love to me.
Nip it in the bud.
I'm a taken man. And that's not planned to change.

Oh! I found a note in the mailbox this noon.
My order finally arrived. So it's time for me to pick it up and continue work tomorrow!
Why did i not start loving Dalaran before? That city is an absolute dream!
"In a world full of fear and hurt, even the least fortunate child deserves a toy to remind it of better times. If only temporarily. And if it smiles? That's the best kind of payment in my eye." P. B. Redcliff

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Re: The new book

#35 Post by Philias » Mon May 18, 2020 9:42 am

Last night.... Was something...
I have not seen the kiss coming...
Just lucky it's Preston. And i KNOW how he meant it. Still...
Could not controll my blasted mane.
It was however, really good to see him again. Very good. I missed him. Greatly.

Armstrong though.
Such an interesting character! I don't know what it's about that man, but him just... Ripping his shirt off was amazing. I am not going to lie.
We discussed favourite lifting weights.
Do i look like i lift?
So i told him that i am lifting Felix. Into bed. Regularly.
Not a lie. And we all had a nice laugh.
Turns out the Kid has a crude sense of humour, too. And he wanna learn baking.
Oh we are gonna be friends, alright.

More baking. Then the meet tomorrow.
Good thing i send the first blanket out to Isadar already. Didn't have the chance to meet him in person, so a courier will do.
For now, i jus' wanna hold Felix.

Just for a little while longer...
"In a world full of fear and hurt, even the least fortunate child deserves a toy to remind it of better times. If only temporarily. And if it smiles? That's the best kind of payment in my eye." P. B. Redcliff

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Re: The new book

#36 Post by Philias » Mon May 18, 2020 10:21 pm

We baked. Most of the day. Im silence.
Not opressing.
Companionable...
There's solitude in silence.

He knows. Felix knows i gotta go.
He's more quiet than usual.
But so am i.
There's not much to talk about.
All that had to be said, been said.
All that had to he done, been done.

The last thing to do, was to bring the treats to people.
The new guy was there. Alexander.
I'm glad that he made time and came.
Felix came, too. Sat down on my lap.
But again... He'd been quiet.

After the caketest.... I knew that Chit liked ginger. So i took my time to make her a batch of ginger bisquits.
She deserves nice things.
The kiss though... I did not see the kiss coming.
Once i'm back, i got to talk to her about it.
Make sure she knows that... This is not going to work.
As sweet as she is. I am not interested.
Just... To set boundaries. To bring a point across. To make sure....
Just to make sure.



Fear is clawing against the back of my conscience.
What am i afraid of?
Maybe the little quest i am setting out on will tell.
He did not kiss me goodbye. Nor did i get a hug. And it gnaws on me.
For now i got to focus, however.

This area is dangerous. Despite the fire and the dragon watching over us.
I'm just glad Syra likes the cloak. It will keep her warm once we get to the snow and ice landscape.
The last thing i'm looking forward to is the cold. I hate frostbite...
"In a world full of fear and hurt, even the least fortunate child deserves a toy to remind it of better times. If only temporarily. And if it smiles? That's the best kind of payment in my eye." P. B. Redcliff

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Re: The new book

#37 Post by Philias » Fri May 22, 2020 7:07 am

We made it.
Returned - more or less in one piece- too!
It was fantastic. In all honesty.
Being out in the wild, surviving. Doing basic tasks... Hunting, foraging, watching the stars...
I missed it.
So much...
Syra made for a great companion. If heavy on the snowballs.
But she did fantastic.
Fierce little girl.

The crystals we got... Turn out to be more of a menace then i thought.
I can only touch them when i'm human... Else my fur will stand on end again.
And i do not wish for a repetition of that.
Left them at Ducky's place, together with the Wyrmscales. They can wait. First i want to try and sell the blue dragon scale...
Or at least one of them.
.
Turns out that Isadar is interested enough to pay good gold for that one. We agreed on a price while he patched my neck up.
We got talking.
And he invited me to an expedition with Felix. Apparently Ehm, Raythe, Olivia and a few others are going, too.

Gotta see when that's gonna happen.
Ask Felix if he might wanna join going there.
It's tanaris... So toasty...
What a contrast in comparison to the place i just went to?

---
Dropped my gear off at home, spoke with him for a mere moment before he fell asleep.
So i left again. No use cleaning everything if it means i make noise to wake him up, right?
So i went back out. Talked some more to people.
Felix was walking the streets after.
In a nightgown... And slippers.
He... Was entirely not himself.
Kept saying crazy things... Random things at times.
Has me worried. Truly.
Turns out he bumped his head when he fell over Baxter.
He used contact lenses, too.
Apparently they enhance the night vision?
But he was unable to get them back out...

And while i removed them, he asked me something interesting...
The question is...
Do i?
"In a world full of fear and hurt, even the least fortunate child deserves a toy to remind it of better times. If only temporarily. And if it smiles? That's the best kind of payment in my eye." P. B. Redcliff

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Re: The new book

#38 Post by Philias » Fri May 22, 2020 7:54 pm

I'm so bloody tempted to make the worst (or best?) decision of my life on a heartbeats notice...

Being in the snowy vasts of Coldarra opened my eyes for something i TRULY miss...
Very much.

The cold...

I've been surrounded by it for many a years... be it in battle, during leisure time, or on hunts.
Snow. Ice. Stars. Mountains. Wild animals with thick pelts...
The thrill of a hunt in the moonlit clear white...

Tomorrow... i am going to take Felix up to Ironforge and have a look at cabins.... or maybe even a small house in bum-fuck somewhere...

Let's hope i won't get injured again.

My neck is itching somewhat fiercely...
Maybe... after all... i will have Ellbry look at it.
"In a world full of fear and hurt, even the least fortunate child deserves a toy to remind it of better times. If only temporarily. And if it smiles? That's the best kind of payment in my eye." P. B. Redcliff

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Re: The new book

#39 Post by Philias » Sat May 23, 2020 8:20 am

Little addition to last night:
I figured... Making hot chocolate and talking in the gardens would help.
But it didn't.
He told me to leave if i was unhappy. And i am... He seemed hostile. The training he did looked agitated.
And i don't have the energy or willpower to confront woth that.
One might think that being out for a few days might have helped.
But it only made matters worse.

I'm more tired.
And severely unhappy.
Why? Because we don't seem able to talk.
He won't get help. Tries to fight everything on his own.
And now, he's even fighting my helping hand.

Felix left...

He left the dogs, just walked out.
I know... He needs this...
But... The things he said to me...
It hurts.
A lot.

Time to share breakfast with the dogs.
Take them out...
Arrange for sleeping-situations downstairs.
A good thing that i still got furs to pick up.
The livingroom will be my new bedroom for now. Can't sleep in bed without him.
Don't want to be surrounded by someone's scent when he ain't here.
It only breaks my heart more.

I just hope we will be well after this.
"In a world full of fear and hurt, even the least fortunate child deserves a toy to remind it of better times. If only temporarily. And if it smiles? That's the best kind of payment in my eye." P. B. Redcliff

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Re: The new book

#40 Post by Philias » Sat May 23, 2020 10:42 pm

Baking... Turns out to be the go-to for me to keep my thoughts at bay.
It's the strain of the task... The repetetive motions.
Stirring, brushing, kneading, folding, whisking...

I started at six in the morning...
Eileena came by sometime before noon. Stayed until later...
Company. Good company.
The hug i gave her was heartfelt. Or was supposed to be.
Yet i felt... Empty.
Usually i feel joy when she hugs me. When people hug me.
But today...

I went out... Took the dogs with me. Had the baked goods, too.
Offered them to anyone that wanted some.
Some people were downright memorable.
That sweet nightelf druid at the traders intiative building... Took an entire arm full.
The cute little Ren'Dorei that was trying to flirt... Sweet thing, too. But i ain't goin for that...
The little Gnome that was head over heels for the strawberry cheesecake...

And the people at the recluse...

That mage...
I still can't believe the sum he offered for the crystal.
Granted... I wanted to give it to Felix... For one of the four wedding things...
Something blue... For good luck...
But i could not say "No" at the sum he offered.
Sold.
The transaction is on monday.
The money will be in my account by evening.

Gone are the worries about my expenses.
With what i'm getting i'll be able to open a bakery. Employ people.
Get a house in Boralus, a cabin in Dun'Morogh and work freely on accruing more gold.

Who knows.

People talked about lines, tonight.
About drawing them.
Keeping them. Steadfast.

Steadfast is not something that my life is right now. I don't know where i stand.
What am i to do?
What should i do?
What am i supposed to do?

And why.... The everliving fuck... Are people talking about adopting me?
I mean... I get that Ducky loves me...
But damn...
I near shed a tear when he ran by.
Gotta lecture the boy about boundaries some day...

Took the bandage off, too.
Still hurts. Still stings. Still bleeds.
But i can't have people fuss over a couple of cuts.
It'll heal on it's own. Wounds always do.
No matter what kind.

It might bleed for a while. But in the end, it's gonna be fine.
"In a world full of fear and hurt, even the least fortunate child deserves a toy to remind it of better times. If only temporarily. And if it smiles? That's the best kind of payment in my eye." P. B. Redcliff

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