Chaos Continued (ramblings before bedtime)

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Re: Chaos Continued (ramblings before bedtime)

#81 Post by Syrawenn » Wed Jul 03, 2019 6:54 am

Once upon a time.
They lived happily ever after.

There's a mood in Starlight. Been there fer a longer while now.
Not sure if it's just Morrigan. It's like there ain't no happy faces anymore. There's secret pain an barely hidden sorrow behind every pair of eyes.
Is that something that is happening now? Or did I just miss it before?
Sure, I known about some of em fer quite some time now, but...there's Lil fer instance. She ain't around. An she used to be sunshine to many shadows, ya know? An I miss that.
A lot.
We need more sunshine in Starlight.
Imagine that, me sayin that. Me, the master of broodin.

But there ya have it.
An she kinda disappeared from the public after there was some discussin where she was walked all over.
I recognized the moment, the signs, the snap with which her mouth shut and did not open again.
No, I don't think she felt recognized at that moment.
Wonder how Sto is feelin about that.

Sure, we all got our wounds, our frustrations.
But do we really have to fall into despair together?
There should be some real success soon.
Somethin people can feel good about.
Nice boost.
But how?

Buildin on my connections, but I ain't there yet. Got the orphanage set up. It's workin out. Got some out in the streets already, gatherin information. Kids are so much easier to talk to. They ain't half full of their own convictions.
Would be bad to have a fake situation, I guess...but if it's just a game, people won't feel half as good.
So
How do I stir up trouble without havin a 'oh gosh, Syra is in ANOTHER fix?' roll of the eyes while people can still feel good about usin their talents?
Hrmmmm...

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Re: Chaos Continued (ramblings before bedtime)

#82 Post by Syrawenn » Sun Jul 07, 2019 8:01 pm

Gotta remember
Gotta remember
Mostly when Im around, no one else is
Gotta remember
Won't have to hear her all the time

I wanna leave
Wanna smash that stone
But if the entire guild is bein taken fer a ride
someone should stay awake

Gotta remember
I'm mostly the only one there.

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Re: Chaos Continued (ramblings before bedtime)

#83 Post by Syrawenn » Mon Jul 08, 2019 4:15 pm

I don't think dad realizes they have taken away the safety of the stone. The guildmeets were already a thing with that constant shadow present. Now the same goes for the stone.
Sure, there are some that would trust her.
But there are those that do not.

I do not stand alone. I fear people might actually do what I did not: leave Starlight for loosing that one safe place to chat, to ramble, to argue. I know my impulses. I know them very well. That's why I did not leave. I know that war is not always a thing outside. This time it is a war within Starlight.
And Morrigan might very well mean Starlight's demise because of it.
That is something I will not hand over on a platter.
So I stay.
And I will convince the others to stay.
Cause we gotta remain strong, even if we can't use the stone fer unity anymore.
Right now she is only one and I can't just give her that kind of power over us.

I get that she is a tool.
I get it.
But she is more.
To some.
So I know where this will go: this trial period will turn into somethin indefinitel unless she does somethin incredibly stupid.
Which she won't.
Cause she's bein coached by our own.

So.
Where to ramble when you know in the back of your mind that the shadow might exploit that moment of weakness, that exposure.
Anyone ya talk to might spill their honest worries on the stone.
Fer her to use.
When she finds the kind of people she is lookin fer.

Guess I'm not rambling anymore.
I'll be fine instead.
An listenin.
Cause when the war comes out
We'll know her weaknesses and strengths too.

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Re: Chaos Continued (ramblings before bedtime)

#84 Post by Syrawenn » Mon Jul 08, 2019 7:20 pm

And then there is communications...
How dare they...
Seriously, how were they ever in their right minds deciding on a one week's deadline without ANY way for someone to find out what the nether was goin on?
NObody posted a note on the wall. I checked! And fer the love of all that ...well, somethin...why...why did not anyone stop to think it might perhaps be a really good idea to at least drop me a line?
Somethin?
ANYthin to warn me?
They all KNOW what the deal is between the Embrace an me. The Embrace an Lakeshire.

Don't tell me they fergot already.

But yea, even though I don't make it to half the meets that I want to go to...they shoulda let me an others know.
They broke the trust of the stone.
Everyone that was there at the last meet and never thought to warn the rest.
Completely.
Without givin anyone a word of warnin who was not there.

Not cool, guys.
Not cool.

Fuck, I gotta find a way to work with this without addin more to dad's shoulders or I'll have to leave anyway.

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